father's day

hari ini minggu ketiga bulan juni, itu tandanya hari ini, hari ayah. sayangnya di Indonesia cuma ada hari ibu, padahal ayah ga kalah pentingnya loh di hidup kita. kalo ga ada ayah kita juga ga bakalan ada. ayah juga yang banting tulang nyari duit buat keluarga nya bisa hidup, anak2nya bisa sekolah, keluarganya bisa piknik jalan- jalan.

hari ini di otak gw cuma inget sama papa. hari ini gw jadi flash back hidup gw yang udah gw habisin sama papa. walopun bokap gw kadang2 suka nyebelin abis, keras kepala, sering nanya2 hal yang ga penting. tapi jasa-jasa beliau di hidup gw bener harus di acungin seribu jempol. dari mulai gw lahir, bokap gw emang pengen punya anak cewe. makanya bokap gw sayang banget sama gw. apa-apa yang gw mau, pasti dibeliin. gw pengen ini, dikasih. gw pengen jalan-jalan kemana, diturutin.

papa ga pernah ngebeda-bedain antara gw sama ikram (adek gw). bagi beliau gw sama adek gw punya hak yang sama di keluarga gw. waktu gw mutusin buat kuliah di malaysia. papa juga yang ngebelain gw di temen-temennya yang nyindir bokap gw, fitnah bokap gw korupsi lah di kantor makanya bisa nyekolahin gw di malay. "arghhh man, papa ga pernah bawa uang haram ke rumah, even cuma telor asin dikasih nasabah, itu juga bakal di pulangin." gw juga pernah denger bokap gw yang ngebela gw di temen2nya yang punya anggapan anak perempuan ga usah disekolahin tinggi-tinggi entar juga ujung-ujungnya didapur. gw ampir nangis waktu denger bokap gw bilang "anak perempuan saya harus pinter kaya orang lain, anak perempuan saya ga boleh bodoh seperti saya, walaupun dia perempuan dia harus maju, saya yakin tia bisa, soalnya saya tau tia hebat." gw terharu sama papa, beliau percaya banget sama gw, beliau juga mau gw punya kehidupan yang lebih baik daripada beliau. walaupun gw perempuan, tapi menurut beliau , gw punya kesempatan yang sama dengan laki-laki

papa juga pernah ngecewain aku, tapi papa kan juga manusia biasa yang pasti bisa khilaf. tapi walaupun gitu. gw selalu berterima kasih sama Allah, karena Allah udah nitipin gw ke orang tua yang hebat. papa yang bijaksana dan mama yang tegar.

makasih papa udah ngejaga aku sampai hari ini, i love you


Happy Father's Day

everything i do is for a reason

Im not an angel, I also can not be white as snow, like when I was a baby.
I am 20 years old now, there is now ton of problems in my brain. you who taught me to not show my problems in front of others. but if I am wrong if I am looking for an escape for it?

I also know the consequences, but do not make me feel guilty like this.

sorry, but i need Those thing.

2 freaky's days with NINDA


ceritanya itu berawal dari gw pengen berenang banget, gara-gara di apartemen gw ga ada kolam renang, gw langsung meres otak gw *mau nebeng berenang dimana, eh tiba-tiba aja otak gw cling cling inget ninda, di vista kan kolam, sorenya langsung aja gw ngeluncur pake taksi kesono, ampe disono, ternyata berenangnya cuma 1 jam doang, (ga ngepol bgt).

pas ngobrol2 sama ninda gw inget kalo hari ini ada tanding bola MU vs Chelsea, mas Lampard maeennnn... !!!!!! mau nonton dirumah tapi astronya ga ada espn. damn mameenn. akhirnya kita mutusin buat nyewa si kuning jreng jreng deh. malem2 cuma be2an, yang satu ditinggal pacar, yang satu ga punya pacar, ya udah klop banget kita menjelajah kota KL. pengennya rencana awal kita ke Sunway, tapi sial kita nyasar ke antah berantah. nyasar ke subang, ke KL balik lagi ke Sunway.

tapi usaha kita ga sia2 dong ternyata CHELSEA menang mameennn, walopun gw pake baju saltum. bonek chelsea pake cardigan merah, tapi bodo amat. yang penting chelsea menang plus kita ketemu cowo ganteng (anak presiden rumania kalo kata ninda) cowo aneh dateng cuma modal headset, abis itu duduk ga mesen apa2 terus nonton bola.

selesai nonton bola, kita keliling KL lagi dengan si kuning jreng jreng. mikir kemana yaa enaknya... eh baru inget dindy tya rao sama mamat lagi di pavi. *samperin ahhh. nyamperin sih nyamperin tapi waktu jalan mau ke pavi kita sempet hampir innalillahi.

kita sampe rumah jam 3 pagi. langsung ngatur rencana buat besok. sotoy bgt kita mau ke PD. lagi pengen maen2 dipantai bikin kulit tanned (padahal apa yg mau di tanned udah item bleketek gini) hahahaha

tapi rencana gagal boss, si ninda kelewat kebo tidurnya. baru bangun jam 12 siang. ck ck ck. ya udah deh kita jalan kemana angin membawa kita, tetep bersama si kuning jreng jreenggg. awalnya kita ke putrajaya. muter2 sampe bego abis itu nyasar ke kuchai lama, nyasar lagi kok sampe ke sunway lagi, *gubrakkk, yo wess lah ngegaul disunway piramid lagi.

gw akuin si bebek adus ini tau dimana makanan enak. pertama kita makan takoyaki. itu sumpah ga boong enak bgt lebih enak daripada di mid valley.trus viewnya kita bisa liat sunway lagoon. abis makan takoyaki kita lanjut es krim jepang rekomendasi ninda. lagi lagi emang enakk paraaahhh, terus low fat lagi, fat nya = 0% .

es krim abis. ninda masih laper dong sodara2 sekalian. akhirnya dia beli ireland potatoes. ini juga maknyosssss abis. kaynya sunway pyramid emang gudangnya makanan enak kali yaaa. duh pengen kesono lagi. kelar muter muter. kita pulang sama si kuning jreng jrengg lagi . pulang ke vista. ngenet bentaran. abis itu pulangin si kuning deh. *sedih banget mulangin kuning. berasa udah sayang. tapi itu mobil punya orang, gimana dong? hahahaha

pas ngembaliin konci mobil, si ninda ngmong gini *"kenapa gw ga inget, gw mau ke ampang view deh fat?"
"ya kalii nin, udah dikembaliin lo baru inget."

makasih yaa nin, lo bikin last weekend di KL berkesan banget. walopun jalan2 pake nyasar ga ngerti kemana tapi moto GPS gw *nyasar diKL mah ga usah takut entar nembus kesitu2 juga* hahha

*Nanti kalo gw balik lagi KL, kita ke lagoon yuk nin, nyewa si kuning jreng jrengg lagi,, makan takoyaki lagi, makan es krim jepang lagi, tapi ga usah pake nyasar2 lagi :))








sorry foto2 jalan2 kita masih di hape gw, laptopnya ninda abal, bluetoothnya rusak :P

Life Lessons

Lessons in Life

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's okay to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's okay to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.

38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

45. The best is yet to come.

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

48. If you don't ask, you don't get.

49. Yield.

50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.


-Regina Brett-

FOR BOYS

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future
When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.

when i had to choose something that i don't want to


now, this minute, I had a dilemma. when I had to decide which path would I choose. next Wednesday is my FYP presentation schedule, which means that very soon I had to leave malaysia. sigh! i hate farewell. it was like when I left Indonesia 2.5 years ago. I really do not know my plan the future. too much pressure.

"do not leave us too soon" icha said. I really do not want to go from here. I've felt comfortable to stay here. although sometimes I feel homesick, too

now I regret why I completed my college degree too fast. with the intention to escape from the problem but until now I cannot get out of this problem. I'm getting more familiar with this complicated situation.

I may come home early from my initial schedule anticipated, on May. but now, I probably could finish all my business by the end of March. sigh sigh sigh ....!!!!!

mama papa ikram, instead I did not miss you. but I want to feel how I manage my own life. but if I had to go home, I'll be home soon. :)


the unforgettable moments























and other memories …..!!!


*****

I say “I don’t care” because... my pride won’t let me show you how much I need you.

As You Travel Through Life

As you travel through life there are always those times
When decisions just have to be made,
When the choices are hard, and solutions seem scarce,
And the rain seems to soak your parade.

There are some situations where all you can do
Is simply let go and move on,
Gather your courage and choose a direction
That carries you toward a new dawn.

So pack up your troubles and take a step forward
The process of change can be tough,
But think about all the excitement ahead

There might be adventures you never imagined
Just waiting around the next bend,
And wishes and dreams just about to come true
In ways you can't yet comprehend!

Perhaps you'll find friendships that spring from new things
As you challenge your status quo,
And learn there are so many options in life,

Perhaps you'll go places you never expected
And see things that you've never seen,
Or travel to fabulous, faraway worlds
And wonderful spots in between!

Perhaps you'll find warmth and affection and caring
And somebody special who's there
To help you stay cantered and listen with interest
To stories and feelings you share.

Perhaps you'll find comfort in knowing your friends
Are supportive of all that you do,
And believe that whatever decisions you make,
They'll be the right choices for you.

So keep putting one foot in front of the other,
And taking your life day by day...
There's a brighter tomorrow that's just down the road -
Don't look back! You're not going that way!

Perahu Kertas

This novel, a popular genre, the style typical of urban young people said, especially seen in the dialogues in it. So did stories about lectures, books and party in the story. Slightly different for example with "Coffee Philosophy" that tends to serious, narrative and humor and rarely involve . I do not know, maybe this kind of breakthrough to be closer to the reader. Indonesian people, especially young children had been grateful to read, not wise to burden the reader with things heavy. Maybe.

Honestly, the beginning of my story is a little confusion with the names of particular Kugy name and Keenan. Furthermore, many figures in it as Eko, Noni, Wanda, Ojos, Pak Wayan, Adri, Lena, Remi, Luhde, etc. Ben.To tell their story again. After I weigh it and thought, it focuses to highlight the story of Dee Kugy and Keenan. As soon as I catch. From the second story, I smelled there approximately three things to be submitted Dee, about Love, Dream and Honesty. This according to my reading. Sorry if it's wrong.

Love: Yes. This novel is about love that are buried by Kugy and Keenan. Both were friends of the campus in Bandung. Like the sky and wells. So said Dee to describe them. They admired each other. However, both are equally unable to express it.
Dream: Kugy, is a messy girl who wants became an interpreter desperate tale. While Keenan really dreams of becoming an artist, a painter. The dream was smooth. Kugy to pass life with realistic become a copy writer, while Keenan instead must turn toward dramatic enough, to work taking care of his father's trading company. However, they always believed in his dream. Nothing is more beautiful than they support each other. And so Dee concocted the story neatly inside. As if to say "Do not Fear To Dreams"
Honesty: This is the end of the story that confuse blue. Both (Kugy and Keenan) had separated for so long. Kugy, already had a lover named Remi, the boss in his office. Meanwhile, Keenan also had a lover girl Bali, Luhde . The story was so complicated. However, Remi finally realized that the heart is only for Keenan Kugy, while Luhde same, though the love is there, only to heart Kugy Keenan. This first honesty . Then, when Keenan Kugy honest and open hearts, took off their egos, they honestly love each other.

-FathiaNoverika

loving someone you will never have


What happens when you realise that you are in love with someone you will never have? A kind and considerate man. A romantic man. Somebody who knows the right things to say and the right places to touch. Somebody who can ignite flames that you thought died along time ago . Somebody who can make you dream dreams so real. What happens when you can't get him out of your mind all day long? What happens when you know he loves to another?







friendship and argument




Friendships go through a trial of arguments and misunderstandings. Something a friend or a person close to you can ruin the whole friendship all together. The best way to move on with life is to forgive and forget. We all know that when we let go of things and it will lighten the load. But that's easier said then done. Here are a couple of things you can do to smoothen the process:

  1. Think of what happened.
  2. Acknowledge your feelings. Seek out for anger or hurt or sadness that you might feel.
  3. Accept responsibility for your own emotions. If you were wronged and your emotions maybe justified, it's still up to you to be ready to stop feeling angry or upset.
  4. Talk to the other person of the behavior that make you feel upset or angry. You might not feel ready to forgive until the person had heard and understood your point of view.
  5. Try and understand the other person's point of view. Even if you don't agree with him/her.
  6. Rebuild trust in the relationship. Make agreements about what is acceptable future behavior when the situation calls.
  7. Make a decision to forgive. Tell that to the other person. Once you've done this make sure you really move on and that you make all efforts to let go completely

Send this free eCard

Send this free eCard

i like to move it move it



dih gw udah lama bgt ga pernah ngupdate blog lagi. bukannya males, tapi emang tidur-tiduran di tempat tidur lebih enak daripada bloging (lah? itu namanya apa kalo ga males) hahahahha. heeyyy, aku baru pindah ke apartemen baru loh. gw pindah dari condominium ke apartemen. memang jadi lebih kecil sih, tapi pas lah buat ukuran mahasiswa rantau kaya gw. hahahahaha

jarak tempat tinggal lama sama tempat tinggal baru gw ga begitu jauh. paling cuma satu kilo doang. ke kampus juga jadi tambah deket. and my new apartment exactly in front of bukit jalil stadium wwoohhooooo. jadi enak kalo mau nonton konser. ga deng gw ga pernah minat sama nonton konser live. even though itu penyanyi ato band kesukaan gw. mau murah mau mahal mau gratisan juga gw ga suka. jadi ga ada ngaruh nya juga sih deket stadium bukit jalil, toh gw juga ga suka bola. hahahaha

apartemen gw yang baru satu blok dan satu lantai sama apartemennya ijum a.k.a dindy dan minah a.k.a tya. assikkkkkk

seneng deh punya tetangga kaya mereka,suka foto2 webcam, joged2 ga jelas, bisa numpang nyuci gratis, numpang ngenet gratis, numpang gratis, malah tadi gw dibayarin burger sama dindy. HAHAHAHAHA


pindahan itu ternyata ga ada enaknyaa, capek, badan pegel, tidur ga enak, alergi kumat, uuuuuuuuuuuu, gw udah mulai packing dari 5 hari sebelum gw bener move dari tempat tinggal lama gw, tapi rasanya gw selesai2 semua barang2 gw, baju apa lagi. Pas hari terakhir gw ngitung barang2 packingan gw sendiri aja ada 3 kardus gede, 2 koper gede, 2 tas super gede, satu koper sedeng, 3 rak, 1 lemari, 3 ember, satu kantong plastic gede isinya Cuma buat sepatu. What the….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Buat mindahin barang gw ike sama prima nyewa lory. Pas semua barang diturunin barang gw diangkatin Cuma sampe depan lift doang. Akhirnya yang laen ngebantuin gw buat ngangkatin sampe masuk ke dalem rumah. Hari itu juga gw paksain badan gw buat kerja beres2 kamar gw sendiri, gw bongkar semua barang2 gw, baju2 gw masukin ke lemari, tempat tidur gw sprei-in lanati gw sapu sama dip el, tapi tetep aja alergi gw kumat, gw ga berenti bersin2.

Jam 6 pagi baru gw selesai beres2 itu juga baru setengahnya. Gw tidur Cuma 3 jam. Jam 9 gw pergi sama tya ke tukang cat buat beli peralatan buat ngecat kamar, awalnya kita dianggurin sama engkoh2 matrialnya. Lama banget kita didiemin , baru deh kita dilayanin. Jam 12 siang kita balik ke apartemen. Di apartemen kerjaan gw juga belum beres. Gw mulai ngecat kamar, walopun kerjaan gw ga rapih tapi ya sudah lah buat kamar gw ini. Sampe jam 2 gw stop kerjaan gw, gw siap2 buat ke LCCT ngejemput abang gw yang paling ganteng a.k.a jawa a.k.a Garry Yunazhar Pawane.

Gw ke bandara bareng dindy. Doi mah mau nemenin gara2 nu green tea doang. Uuuuuuu… saking udah ga jelas lagi capeknya gw. Akhirnya gw ketiduran di bis, baru bangun pas udah deket2 LCCT.

Sampe dibandara ternyata jawa udah nyampe duluan, abis itu kita nongkrong2 di MCD, ahh akhirnyaaaa gw makan jugaaa. Perut kenyanggg abis itu kita foto2 deeeehh. Dindy juga udah dapet minuman keramat nya langsung suka senyum2 sendiri gitu. Uuuuuu.. padahal waktu di jalan gw bener2 dikacangin sama dia.



Jam 10 malem gw sama dindy sampe ke arena green (apartemennya kita). Pas gw masuk apartemen gw housemate gw lagi ada dirumah. Patty baru selesai beres2 kamar, icha biasa dia ga jelas. Abis itu gw ngelanjutin ngecat kamar gw. Lagi asik ngecat, icha dating mau ikutan ngecat juga. Tapi bukan tembok yang di cat tapi baju sama kaki gw. ASSSIIIIHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..!!!!!!! hahahahaha. Jam 12 malem teng teng lewat dikit kali yaaa. Gw udah nyerah banget2. Gw udah capek sejadi jadinya. Kamar gw baru setengah selesai gw cat. Ya udah lah besok katanya jawa mau ngebantuin ngecat. Berharap jawa mau bantuin gw, akhirnya gw tidur pulesss banget . jam 9 pagi gw bangun, ruang tengah udah lebih bersih dari kemaren. Akhirnya gw naro barang2 gw yang belum selesai gw beresin ke kamarnya icha. Abis selesai mindah2in barang gw ke the store bareng patty belanja bahan makanan. Abis itu pulangnya gw ke tukang cat lagi buat beli kuas sama satu liter cat. Nyampe arena gw nunggu kabar dari jawa, gw bingung kok dia ga ngasih kabar, apa masih tidur, akhirnya gw sms aja. Pas dibales ternyata jawa nya ga enak badan. Wokeeehhh, perfect banget, tadinya gw mau entaran aja ngecat nya. Pas gw liat kamarnya icha. Ternyata kak ani lagi ngeberesin kamarnya icha. Doh ga enak gw sama icha kalo numpang naro barang kelamaan disana. Mau ga mau, gw maksain diri buat nyelesein ngecat kamar gw sampe selesai.

Jam 7 sore baru gw bener2 selesai ngecat kamar, uuuuu kamar ku berwarna hijauuu sekarang. Puasss ngeliat hasil kerjaan sendiri. Beres ngecat mulai deh ngatur2 kamar lagi sampe beres. Dari masang kaca. Pajang lukisan nya nyokab gw. Ngatur alat make up, ngatur buku. Jam setengah 10 baru semuanya beres. Akhirnya gw mandi abis itu pergi numpang ngenet di rumah JUMINTEN DAN MINAH. Uuuuuuuuu

Sekarang semuanya udah settled, gw juga udah ga berasa capeknya lagi, gw juga betah sama kamar baru gw. Kamar hijau Carrefour kalo kata dindy hahahaha.

Oh iya finally ini foto housemate gw yang sekarang